Arh damm! Just read my TP mails and as of today my CM is going to change to some others that I do not know and don't even think I've seen before. I like Helen. This is sad. *sigh... and for a second I thought Benny would become my new CM.
It may not seems so to you but psychologically you ARE trying to control my life or to be exact, my actions. Damm you! The world do not live to please you. Only you are allow to make mistakes and expect others to forgive you but others are not allow to make mistakes and expect you to forgive them. You are allow to have second chances but you don't give the same out to others. Tell me this is fair.
You are trying to treat me the same way you are treating her and expect me to comply with it. Well good news to you, I am not her. Unlike her, I have a mind of my own and no one controls my action but myself. I do not live my life to please you and I account to no one. I'm not trying to be mean here but she IS weak minded and allows you to manipulate her every move. That's pathetic and it's saddening. You really are self-centred you know.
You say all you want to know is "To know and to understand. To feel and to empathise with me" but truth is whether you want to believe it or not you are trying to disect my brain. disect my every move so that you can make me predictable to you. So that in some you could have some hold of me. No one ask you to try empathise with me. I do not live my life in some wreck conditions please. I do not need all these. You say this is what a friend would do but I don't remember getting so irritated over with any of my friends over these actions you do.
You try so hard but you still don't get it do you? Truth is you never know me. You say you want to please me but you never know my likes or dislikes. You can say that I never tell you but I did. Sort of; in a way I did. All the rest seems to be able to grasp it in no time at all but till now you still don't. What split personalities? To my way of seeing you are just finding excuses. You are always so good at coming out with one whole pile of excuses when things don't go your way.
You would never be happy and at peace until everythings that surrounds you goes along with the flow of you. Now THAT is truth for you. You say you love but you know what? This is not called love. Maybe it is to you but this is not to me. The person you love most in this world is yourself. The rest is just secondary. That's why you would have such high citeria. To love, first and foremost there would be compromises and you had already failed in that.
Good day to you. Just leave me alone.
This is the first year I actually dislike CNY. Well, sort of dislike. It interfere with my findings for SIP. None of them are free for interviews. At this rate, I'm really afraid I would be left with no attachment. 10 over people fighting for that same job and they could only take in one or two. You tell me. Nice huh! Why can't the school just get a job for us? Instead, we have to go out there and use our own means to settle it on our own THEN come inform our lecturers of it.
Hello! Not all of us are some rich kids or have connections all around the world where you can just go ask you father's company or ur relatives' companies to take you in.
.Never.Ending.Rainbow. 4:17 PM
